i'm at an interesting, confusing, exciting point in my life right now.
M2 is a lot harder than M1. the material is more dense, there is less time to learn it in, and everything seems to be moving faster.
i've started working out, semi-regularly. i'm sick of being out of shape, and i really want to be strong. really, really strong. i want to be able to run further, kick more ass than i already do, you know how it goes. i'm too young to feel this shitty.
i'm also pretty certain that i have delayed sleep phase syndrome, because it pretty much explains my entire life. i'm not sure what i'm going to do about it. i could try light therapy but honestly i don't feel like it's that big of a deal that my personal sleep schedule doesn't match up with what society expects from me. i'll probably feel differently once i start M3, but for now i'm just going to keep going the same way i always have because i happen to like my life. sometimes the cracks from other people are fucking annoying (ohh, natasha's out in the daytime...ohh, you're here at the library late...ohh blah blah blah) but i need to just forget the haters and keep on with my bad self.
what else what else. peter & i have our 5 year anniversary next month. things have been a little rough lately because i feel like our lives are moving in different directions and it's scary, but i'm not going to run away from it. we'll work through this and come out even more badass than we already are.
and that's pretty much it. my life consists primarily of studying, working out, eating, and talking to my boyfriend. sometimes it makes me sad, because i crave something more, but i know that it will come with time.
OH YEAH. i forgot some important things. since my last post:
- i went home for 2 weeks last summer and had a fucking blast (as always)
- i went to tanzania for 3 weeks and had a fucking blast
- my bf visited me in cbus for my 23rd bday and it was fantastic
- i moved out of my studio apt & into a house with 3 other girls that are M2's, all from california, but they're all IP students...can't decide if i regret this decision or not, but being a 5 min walk to campus vs a 20 min bus ride is SOOO nice.
so...yes.